boys are different than girls... alot ;)

I remember the day I held each of my children for the first.. duh, it hurt like a (insert mad painful adjective)... What I remember most though is the paralyzing love, that hit me like a train. I realized that I had never loved anyone or anything as much... Fast forward to today... My 5 year old is growing in leaps and bounds... Actually both of my boys are.. In less than a month they have grown 1/2 and inch!! Tone is as tall as me (or as short as me..lol). Anyway, with all this growing outwardly there is growing inwardly too... Dom is making all these crazy connections that have propelled him from being my little baby toddler to whatever is next... a big little kid... So now we have reached the point, where not all my love is necessarily desired or accepted... not in a mean way... example: "Mom, I do love you, but I am trying to beat Bowser, so I cannot stop to hug your neck right now".. like that. It is a pivotal because it is the point where I desire to push him back to babyhood... but I choose to support the growing up... it can be tough, because at times I desire the wee-one to accept all my hugs and kisses even if they are in rapid succession. Last night, I realized that Dom is learning to think more and make choices for himself... Our discussion: Nighttime hugs & kisses.. He wasn't really diggin it, and responded with "is it up to you or up to me".. this lets me know he is aware there are times he doesn't have a say in things... that is the "up to mom only" and then there are times where it is "up to Dom"... and he can yay or nay as he pleases. He quickly followed that comment up with a "lets talk about it"... hahaha!! I am always pushing them to talk through things, I think it is finally sticking!

So as my little fam makes this transition from man-child & wee-child into teenager & kindergartner... I will purpose to appreciate the growing... and to not try to keep my bitty love a baby forever. There is some degree of goodbye in it all... I am so thankful that God gave me children who bring so much humor even in the midst of chaos and sometimes sadness.